Current Favourite YouTuber

Check this guy out. He doesn't have that big vocals but his voice really is pleasant to the ears. And this video makes me smile dowh walaupun lagu sedih. Hahahah. *mereng*

BUTUH waktuku seumur hidup. HAHAH I heart <3 <3 Bahasa Indonesia

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♥ Omnyet

Hope you love me as much as you did when we first knew each other, if not more, coz I certainly do :)


Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah korang! Aku x da azam, cuma doa-ed for a better year. That's what we all want, isn't it?



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From This Moment On

From this moment
As long as I live
I will love you
I promise you this
There is nothing
I wouldn't give
From this moment on



I ♥ you




p/s: Sorry korang entry jiwang :D blog aku suka hati aku laaaah. I ♥ Shania and I ♥ this song. Haha.



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Monday

For the past couple of weeks, I've been feeling this kind of feeling every Monday morning.

When I was 8, my family moved from Sabah to Perak. So we all had to go to a new school laah kan. I was the only one yang sekolah petang. Both of my sisters sekolah pagi. And they both got into the top classes, kelas Putih, whereas I got into the 2nd last class or something, kelas Jingga. It sucked. Real hard.

Kelas tuh sangat sakit jiwa sebab the whole building buat dari papan. And sekolah tuh buruk! Now if I got into kelas Putih, I would be in the main building, buat dari batu bata laah of course, duh.

And I didn't have any friends then. Every passing minute sure felt like forever. I couldn't even remember what I did during break time. Must be hiding behind a building or something. And my class teacher wasn't very much of a help either. I got homesick very often.

So that's when I started getting lazy to go to school and gave lame excuses whenever I felt like staying at home. I hated school, I only wanted to be at home, with Mak (although dia pun mengajar petang kat sekolah lain lah).

I still remembered Mak's face when she tried to make me wear my socks when I started crying and refused to go to school and the bus was already waiting. It was a sad and disappointed face.

So that's how I felt when I was at school - homesick and only Mak could make me feel safe, although I perfectly understood Mak couldn't be there with me when I was there.

This morning when I woke up, I had the exact same feeling, except I didn't need Mak to make me feel safe. I wanted someone else. Someone who couldn't be here for me, no matter how much I need that someone.

How I wished that someone is always there for me. But we couldn't be there for each other 24/7, could we? Especially when you can't reach the person you long so much, and they're gone without a trace, without a news.

I know that that someone will be back. But when the feeling of needing someone came back haunting, you just felt like the day is over, although it has barely begun.

My X Ray session this morning got cancelled and I went back early. Last few weeks I would be ECSTATIC to go back, knowing what to do for the rest of the day. Sure I was more than happy this morning when I could go home early, but what do I do when I get back? I asked myself.

That's what I meant when I said the day is over when it's barely begun.

Thank goodness, this afternoon's filling was a success. At least I did something productive.

Well, I hope you'll be back soon. Very soon.

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Forever & Always

Ok, you guys know how I HATEEEE Taylor Swift (sebab jeles je bukan sebab ape pun hihi). But I have to admit her songs are pretty good. Last Wednesday Sarah made a comment on my wall :

Forever & Always - Taylor Swift
♥ good luck.

Sebab Khamis tuh aku ada pros test tuh kan. Aku x dapat pun kaitan lagu Forever & Always nih dengan test aku +____+ tapi thanks ye cik mek for the song haha. Aku pi dengar kat youtube. Mehh. X suka.

And thennn, Iman tagged me on facebook. She covered this song and guess whatt, her version is much better IMHO. Taylor's is too fast and pop-ish and Iman's is more .... tender? hehe. Anyhow, I love Iman's and her version made me love the song.

*I wanna upload your video Iman, tapi you didn't upload on youtube so xleh upload kat sini*

But you can watch it here.

And I googled the lyrics.

And these lines made my eyes go @@ - terbeliak.

And I stare at the phone and he still hasn't called

And you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all

And you flash back to when he said "forever and always"

Honestly.

Since I hate Taylor's ori version, I put up this awesome cover. As tender as Iman's if not more. Gosh, whats with this tender shit.

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Okai

Okay okay lepas aku buat entry nasik lemak tuh ttbe ade sorang budak 1st year upload gmbar nasik lemak kat facebook. Amboi.. tau2 je memaenkan hati dan perasaan aku kan??? Waa... jom layan gambar nih.. (aku curik hehe)

(chupp baru perasan yang die x upload pun, beliau hanyalaaah di tagged hehe)

Tapi lihat laah kawan2.....

sambal itu....... aku boleh ratah satu periuk plz....

kacang ituuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

ikan bilis ituuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

nasik ituuuuuuuuuuuu

telur ituuuuuuuuu.



Oh.

Nasik lemak MSD harga 2.50 pound btw (kalau tambah telur goreng). hampeh mahal gila.

Ermmmmmm kalau demam aku dah baek by this weekend haruslaah aku lesap ke MSD pagi2 utk melantak nasik lemak kan.

Nasik lemakkk nasik lemakkkk aku dah gila. lalala

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Nasik Lemak

14 hari lagi.

Detink

Sampai epot A.Staq pkol 8 pagi. Lepas tuh WAJIBUL GHUNNAHHH pegi melantak nasik lemak berserta teh tarik.

Oh Tuhan. Nasik lemak.. kenapalah dikau sangat enak....

Kedemaman ini menyebabkan aku mengidam memacam (dh dekat 2 hari aku xmakan weh,, hanye minum horlicks utk sugar. kurusss kurussss)

Oh nasik lemak. Nasik lemak ku...

Jom MSD korang? Heee.

Oh btw, tadi aku shadow 4th years mengtreat this child patient umur 6 tahun. Ala chomeyllll nak buat fissure sealant pun pegang tangan mak. Budak laki lak tuh, mesti anak manja. Haha.

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OK I'm Back

Yesterday I decided to stop blogging for a while, sebab emosi x stabil. Aku tengah demam nih, agak teruk gila la, sebab tuh x stabil. Lecture pagi tadi pun aku ponteng, sebab tahap xleh bangun dari katil :( tapi now I'm feeling better, lepas telan 2 bijik paracetamol. Harap bertahan sampai Jumaat nih (ada patient .. isk..)

Semalam masa dkat Snog Cik Z cakap "cheer up la sikit, kau memang suka tayang emosi ek?" erkk... xtaw la aku suka tayang ke apa, aku rasa susah nak hide emotions di muka ini. Even kalau pegi lab ke kelas ke Sarah mesti dapat detect "Kau ok x?" +____Z

Aku pun x suka sangat kalau orang tau pasal problem aku, sebab aku x suka baca blog orang yang emosi2 cintan2 kt blog dorang (walaupun tu hak dorang laah kan nak tulis).

Pernah dengar x pasal this thing where you'll usually get (or become) things that you hate. CONTOH: Korang benci orang Kelantan (contoh je ye), last2 korang kawin dengan orang Kelantan gak. (Iklan, aku x benci orang Johor tapi aku nak kawen dengan orang Johor. erkkkk).

Aku penah mentidak sukai satu blog nh, sebab die asyik cter pasal pakwe die... yang die asek tukar setiap 3 bulan. huhu. Xde laaa aku tukar awek setiap 3 bulan kan (heck, last time berapa taun dulu tah) tapi aku rasa aku dah jadi macam minah tuh yang asyik berjiwang di blog beliau. Tu la, laen kali jangan cakap "xkan buat, xkan buat" sebab last2 ko akan buat jugaks.

Ok aku membebel. Otak aku x betul lagi, telinga pun dok bingit2 lagi. Sorry.

2 3 hari nh aku dok dengar lagu nih. Tenang gils lepas dengar.

Doakan aku pass pros test aku esok. Naseb baek practical, xyah study apa2 pun (ye ke?)

Lepas nih aku try la kurangkan jiwang2 kat blog hehe. Orang tu pun entah2 x suka aku jiwang over2. Hehe

Countdown balik Malaysia: 15 hari :)

ETA: Oh, aku nak terima kasih BANYAK BANYAK BANYAK BANYAK kat kawan2 (you know who you are) yang message, etc tanya aku ok ke tak. Thanks guys, terharu gituh.

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What Can I Say?

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You should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number
But it's been so long
It's never easy
It's like trying to spin the world the other way
What can I say?

Carrie Underwood feat. Sons of Sylvia
What Can I Say

Disgusted

Bila tengah happy, tak pernah beringat
Bila tengah down, baru nak ingat Tuhan. Baru nak ingat cari Tuhan. Baru nak ingat mengadu dekat Tuhan.
I'm so disgusted with myself.

Seksanya jiwa Tuhan je la yang tau.
I can't say more, I'm actually lost for words.
Yang boleh buat tunggu je la. Sabar... sabar...

OK dah emo utk hari nih!

Pagi tadi aku ada Oral Surgery, sebab sekarang nih tengah musim down, aku rasa nak ponteng je klinik pagi tadi. Tapi aku dah 2x missed OS clinic, so aku pikir panjang, xnak nanti ada prob dengan dean etc pasal attendance, paksa diri gak gi mandi.

Sampai2 clinic check2 timetable aku salah rupanya, ingatkan hari nih buat X-Ray, rupa2nya LA. Arghh. Malas malas malas nak jumpa patient. Kalau boleh nurse 4th years je (itupun still malas gak hehe). Tapi hari nih patient sikit la plak? Makanya ktorg 3rd years x dapat patient pastu dok nyembang je. Tutor ari nih Dr L ttbe datang, bagi skulls pastu tanya pasal bones, muscles, nerves etc @@ mana laa nak ingat semua kan, boleh laa jawab sket2 dia tanya tuh.

Pastu dia bagi consent form, soh ktorang isi and adalah part pasal risks and benefits of extraction. Aiyoooo panjangnye die boleh elaborate pasal tuh. Pasal infection itu laah ini laahh. Aku sah2 laaah diam je kan tunggu orang laen jawab huhu.. Yang aku jawab:

What's the inflammation of the sinus? Sinusitis
What's the inflammation of the brain membrane? Meningitis.

Muhahaa.. sorry la ye kawan2 group ku, aku curi ilmu je hari nh hehe.

Lepas tuh ktorg buat ID block. Omg, so helpful, masa ktorg baru praktis last year tuh maen cucuk je xtaw teknik yg betul (Sorry Mezul, tapi aku rasa tutor aku hari tuh betul, cuma ada better technique than that one la huhu).

Erm, pastu tadi petang jadi nurse pasangan kelinikku. Who would've thought holding the suction would be so tiring? Ahhhh I'm not fit laaaa..

Awak oh awak....

Oh xde mood nak tulis panjang2 la korang.. Sorry..

(Dorang kata masa winter nih normal la kalau down2, depress2, tapi I don't see any relations pun my depression dengan cuaca yang malam awal. Oh Tuhan..)

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